In the past, I would stand against the wall, on the fringe, watching those in the middle having more fun and greater influence over everything that was happening. I stood at a distance, wishing I was standing in the middle so everyone could finally see how awesome I was. A few times, I pushed my way to the middle, stood there with everyone’s eyes on me, and I froze not knowing what it means to occupy that center space or how to make use of that kind of attention. Eventually, I broke free from freezing by willing myself to move. I tried to make a lot of prepared noises and fast flourishing movements to keep everyone’s attention. That technique was fleeting and even worked against me as people learned that I was not able to deliver anything of substance.
Finally, I gave up and I stopped trying to push into the middle. Instead, I stopped moving and shifted my focus onto my own center. I asked myself who I really was and what my true gifts are. I got quiet enough to start hearing answers. And then I began to learn how I could make those gifts valuable to myself and to others through practice. After many years — and many more mistakes — I looked up and realized that, more and more, I was finding myself in the center where the action is. I hadn’t moved. It was my world that was shifting to meet me in my center where I know myself and I am the most valuable to myself and to the world.
An initiated Spiritual Guide and Ritual Master in the Lineage of King Salomon through The Modern Mystery School. He works with the universal system of Living Kabbalah to help others cultivate the Tree of Life in their own lives and become powerful creators. Osiris produces events and original music through Blessoteric Records, using this medium to showcase conscious artists and music.
